ilovesuper

you'll always be my thunder

2010-05-24T23:11:00.001-07:00

smilethroughtheclouds.tumblr.com :)

and i havent started on my hbl ):

25 may 2.11pm

me, you and my medication

2010-05-24T03:58:00.000-07:00

i should create a tumblr.

having fun using my sister's macbook while she's away in new york/ boston/ massachusetts/ rhode island.

yesterday's GDOP was happifying yet saddening.

sigh ):

if that helps, i really really like you ))):

24 may 6.59pm

schadenfreude

2010-05-10T03:32:00.000-07:00

you know what.

i really dont like to hate, it isnt exactly a good feeling.

but you really make me run out of middle fingers to point at you.

you have absolutely no business treating me this way, when i should clearly be the one pissed at you.

and yet i'm willing to treat you as if nothing happened and you come skipping along and think you own the whole world issit.

this is like the ten thousandth bendy straw already i cannot stand you anymore if you want to do this, then be that way.

i'm absolutely fine with it, afterall i dont need you to survive thanks.

and dont you dare try to lie about how i'm treating you blah blah blah when i'm clearly not even doing anything -.-

you just wanna make me seem like the bad guy in front of him right best lor you.

pls lah the whole world also can tell you're trying to get into his good books.

come on, you really need to get a life.

and i cant stand how you self proclaim yourself as so holy and godly whatever when you're nothing but a bloody hypocrite.

in fact, this seems to be common of people belonging to this fandom.

10 may 6.51pm

sad songs are only meant for the broken hearted

2010-05-07T10:28:00.000-07:00

i hate this.

i have a hiccup and it wouldnt stop D:

i know this is weird and random but, i can have up to 6 hiccups a day for no reason lol.

i just talk and talk and suddenly i hiccup.

k this is weird.

its so late now and the only reason why i'm still awake is cos my hair hasnt dried ):

urgh.

went to watch animal farm today, then had dessert which resulted in coming home at 11.50pm.

chionged the physics online quiz thingy with help from some people :)))))

cos deadline was 1am lol

k sorry i feel guilty now.

bathed late, and yeah this is the reason why i'm here now.

i've only got 1 person to talk to so yeah decided to blog.

k i realised this post isnt going in any particular direction lol.

plus its like 1.32am right now my brain isnt exactly thinking straight.

oh but today imma happy kid :))))

stayed back to paint the class, and saw someone studying outside the staffroom when i was on my way home!

OMGOSH HEH :D

that person was wearing glasses lor omgosh i never knew that man.

first time i see leh.

and that person had earphones plugged into his ear then when he saw me walking past he looked up and waved :))))

turns out you're not daoing me afterall, eh.

got dance concert ticket tmrw, i'm pretty excited heh.

this was super last min, cos due to my procrastination, i was begging people for tickets on monday LOL.

then my friends told me all sold out already ))):

thankfully managed to get one today :))))

haha God really wants me to go dance concert, eh.

haha okay i shall not preach about God!

personally i dont like people who do that too yeap.

haha k i see this post is going towards no particular direction so i shall just haphazardly end it off here.

but i'm not sleeping yet though.

hmm goodnight folks :)

08 may 1.40am

grant me the serenity to accept things i cannot change

2010-05-04T01:51:00.000-07:00

you know sometimes, i really am thankful to God for all the things he has given me.

many many little things that happen in daily life, they all piece together to form this huge huge puzzle of luck, as i would call it.

he breaks this puzzle up, and places them during different courses of the day as and when i need it.

i remember the day i got accepted into VIP, i wrote this blog post about God.

shall paste the whole lot of it here, since i chucked my old blog posts into somewhere else.

God.

i am finally convinced that there is some higher being up there, watching our every move and step you take.
of course i wouldnt say its God, simply because i'm not a christian and i wouldnt want to use that word so conveniently.
but you know, the power of this higher being is superb.
it really sees all that you've gone through, and metes out a suitable reward for you after all you've been through.
of course, life is not always easy.
it does make fun of you, play tricks on you, punish you for the wrongs you've done.
in the form of ironies.
you know how sometimes its so ironic?
i believe its the work of this higher being up there.

so if you're going through a rough patch in life, always remember this higher being.
sometimes you might think no one sees the good that you've done.
but no, he will examine you, and judge you based on what you've done.
even if you are misunderstood or punished unfairly, it is okay.
because eventually, it could be 1 year later, 2 years later, or even 30 years later, he will be sure to reward you accordingly.

for one, i've seen it for myself, i know for sure it is true.
things that have been going on around me recently just proves this concept of mine.
of course, you may choose not to believe me, this is just my personal opinion which i'm sharing with you all and i really dont know why.
i think this is really awesome, really magical.
almost like you're dreaming.

okay just to cut a long story short, no words can describe my joy today.
thankyou for believing in me, i love you :)

this was dated 14 september.

hmm turns out i had this thing with God since a long time back, eh.

stuff that happened today just made me reflect.

think, about how lucky i actually am.

i'm actually in a much better position than many others.

geog test results.

i know i'm definitely not the most hardworking student for one.

(this is evident in the fact i just slacked my whole 3 day holiday away and justified my actions by telling myself: i forgot to bring my notes home therefore i cannot study)

well, that is not important.

in any case, i definitely do not work hard.

and yet, i passed my geog test.

it might not be a very good grade.

but for one i know that half the class failed and probably two thirds of this number studied harder than i did.

much much harder.

i only studied 1 hour before the test, on the day itself.

and i would not have studied if not for the fact i was lucky again, that history options was cancelled or something.

in many other instances, bio test, LA test, whatnot.

i did better than many others who actually studied, but failed.

see how interesting God works?

napfa.

you gave me strength to complete the run, thus insuring me of my Gold for the 6th consecutive year.

yeah something happened to me on the 4th round yeah my stupid heart but k lets not talk about it.

i am injured, as you all already know.

today all of a sudden i decided to go home early, since i had nothing else to do in school.

i boarded bus 48, and the bus captain seeing i was injured, actually waited till i inched slowly to the back of the bus and found a seat, settled down, before he drove off.

the same thing happened when i changed bus and took 154 which took me home.

people around me are getting increasingly nicer.

i too, am thankful for that.

for one, i could have met with a nasty bus captain and drove off immediately after i had boarded the bus, which would probably leave me cursing and swearing.

the usual 3 minute walk home took me 15 minutes today.

had to cross the overhead bridge, which was a feat.

but this made me stop, pause, think.

walked slowly, and reflected.

looked at my surroundings: cars driving pass, people walking pass.

happiness. what is it?

true happiness. what is it again?

some people are actually very lucky, but they appear to be unhappy.

some people are unlucky, but yet appear to be happy.

people who are calculating take things too seriously, and thus tend to be constantly unsatisfied & unhappy.

people who take things lightly tend to be less calculating see things simply and thus tend to be constantly happy.

there are many reasons as to why people are unhappy.

3Gs: God, Glory and Gold.

but may i add one more: love.

everybody seems to be constantly pursuing happiness, finding ways to be happy.

people also often get jealous of what others' own, and lament about what they dont have.

but we often forget: AS we are envying others' success/happiness, we are also being envied by those behind of us who are less fortunate, which we cannot see.

eg. its like how you look in front of you, and you see the neighbour in front of you has planted a very nice apple tree, with many red, juicy and big apples.

whereas your apple tree has few apples, small and pink.

you lament. you ask God why.

you are jealous, you envy.

but you forgot, your neighbour behind you doesnt even have an apple tree.

he doesnt even have an apple tree to start with, much less apples to eat.

in actual fact, everybody owns happiness in one way or another. we all have it.

it is just that your happiness is often in the eyes of another.

we often look forward, but we forgot to turn back and take a look at those behind of us.
sometimes, they need help.

thought about how lucky i am in actual fact.

i have great friends, responsible parents and a loving family.

food to eat, shelter to stay.

i thank God for all he has given me.

what more can i ask for.

after all's said and done, heres the big question: am i gonna convert to christianity?

to be honest, i dont know.

i really have no answer to that.

i've thought about this question since i was in primary 4, when i first attended sunday school in a church because my friend invited me.

(okay fine i went because i liked that friend)

anyway, the reason why i'm hesitant to convert to christianity is because i question the existance of God.

as in i believe in God, but i still have my doubts.

and k there's this other factor but k lets not go down there.

so, we'll see how.

i believe time can prove everything.

cherrios guys :)

04 may 5.43pm

hey, you

2010-05-03T00:58:00.000-07:00

you know what,

i know i should learn to

but do you know that

and i hope it stays that way for as long as possible :)

03 may 4.03pm

2000 calories

2010-05-01T06:57:00.000-07:00

you think i like some tap issit you ask me forget i can forget ah.

sorry but humans are not like that, we cant just turn on and off as and when we like.

good for you if you can, but sorry i cant.

rawr k lah i'm sorry i shouldnt have done that ):

why nobody's free to talk to me one ))))):

01 may 10.03pm

looking for special things inside of me

2010-04-30T23:35:00.000-07:00

"because skinned knees are easier to fix than broken hearts"

disagrees with this statement to a large extent ):

my stupid knees hurt like crazyyyy ):

yesterday i had to spend hours taking all the gauze out cos it was stuck to my wounds and it was hurting damn badly okay ):

this morning also )))))):

and the pus keeps coming out in bubbles like cheese coming out from a cheese sausage lor!

this is supah gross ):

oh because of my knee, someone talked to me yesterday heh :)

heehee ^^

collected jay necklace + show badge after school yesterday heh.

supahh happy yo.

the blogshop owner was super nice, i actually stood there and chatted with her for 15 mins about jay's concert hahaha.

and she was totally damn concerned about my knee, even a complete stranger also so nice leh (Y)

hmm and 患难见真情 is damn true yupps.

people who were genuinely concerned, and people who were giving fake concerns, people who ttly didnt bother, yeah i can see through all of them.

thanks to all who were helping/waiting for me cos i was walking super slowly :)

bio test marks totally shocked me till no end.

ms chua just HAD to arrange it in marks order, totally scared me like crazy.

i was super scared i would be the last to get my paper then the whole world would know i failed lah -.-

heng i was around the middle, super heng.

though it was not say very good lah but heh, be content with what you have, and not complain about what you dont have :)

so yeap i thank god for all he's given me :)

should be going to church tmrw morning :)

lets see what would come out of it :)

01 may 2.34pm

superman cant fly

2010-04-28T07:15:00.000-07:00

went ion with stupid people today :)

i wanna buy so many things, and i'm broke.

i wanna punch you now, but i cant.

i wanna understand stuff taught in school, but i cant.

"i'm perfectly aware of the situation, but that doesnt mean i should just give up on my friendship like that right."

how great.

i'm just so happy now i could drown in happiness isnt that awesome.

i wonder if you know you're supah annoying.

28 april 10.23pm

cos smileys always does the trick

2010-04-24T04:37:00.001-07:00

24 april 7.37pm

people talking without listening

2010-04-20T04:49:00.000-07:00

i thought i said i didnt care, when why did i go back to reading all the old convos again -.-

now its deja vu all over again urgh.

oh and 12 hours without my phone is simply unbearable ):

20 april 7.50pm

restraint

2010-04-19T08:48:00.000-07:00

It hit me like tons of waves like WOAH.

19 april 11.48pm

just let it go now wont you

2010-04-19T05:11:00.001-07:00

school today was pretty mundane.

totally didnt pay attention in any of the classes.

just didnt feel like it.

spent my time writing some stupid poem and chionging my bao.

yeah i know i'm screwing up my life, shut up now.

chem was prolly the highlight though.

was quite funny playing with the plasticine err... balls.

HAHAHAHA (Y)

and how jason kept rolling it into a long sausage looking thingy and poked a stick in the middle LOLOL.

okay you see now i'm trying my best not to sound wrong but looks like its failing.

hahaha and rach making 2 balls of plasticine and poking 2 holes through them and go like "omg i can see through them!"

HAHAHAHAHA (Y)

chris getting all pissed and jay poking a hole in the err.. thing that hans gave us.

what are we teaching our scholars man!

or wait, do they know that already.

maybe they arent as pure as we thought :)

heh sorry i just needed some laughter in my life :p

was supposed to do 2.4km today but it was raining so (Y)

did 5 items instead.

and i feel stupid cos i forced myself to drink 1 whole can of red bull to boost my performance for running and you have no idea how awful red bull tastes )))):

5 items was.... satisfactory.

nuff said.

oh and sometimes i really think my ipod has a mind of its own.

it seems to play the exact songs that convey my mood when i put it on shuffle.

you can be her knight in shining armor, i dont need you now thanks.

oh and i'm so sad nowxzxzxz ):

everytime i see you, you either dao me or just hi and walk off.

shucks lah i shouldnt have emotionally blackmailed you see lah now like that ):

k goodbye for now, going for dinner folks.

(and yes i get home approximately this late every monday D<)

19 april 8.20pm

2010-04-18T08:42:00.000-07:00

I WANT A HUG ):

18 april 11.42pm

change is probably the only constant

2010-04-18T06:26:00.000-07:00

i just realised how much i've changed over the years.

last time in prolly p2 or something, i would be damn scared just walking across the pool which was still in the condo from my house to the vending machine, like i was just scared my parents would find out somehow and scold me.

nowadays, i would head to town and slack for a few hours with my friends without a second thought.

my guts has really increased exponentially.

i'm still me, but the things inside and outside of me have been changing.

at a pretty fast rate.

i claimed that i've only changed on the outside since i came to vj, but seems that what's inside of me is changing too.

so much for me blaming you for changing.

more often than not, we're all guilty of that too.

桃花依旧物是人非.

got a hug from somebody today.

feels good, thanks so much for everything.

really.

but as always, good things wont last long.

what if one day God just decides to take you away?

sigh, why am i always spot on.

whatever it is, i've learnt something though.

never ever take your words seriously lol.

so yeah i'll just take everything you say from now on with a pinch of salt, since you never seem to practice what you preech.

bloody hypocrite -.-

i'm super lazy to do my bao zhang bao dao now urgh.

and i'm lazy to reply tags too :/

18 april 9.54pm

What is life?

2010-04-17T10:30:00.001-07:00

Life is to experience, to make mistakes and learn from them, to fail and to succeed, to love and to lose and so much more.

You would experience a hybrid of emotions - jealousy, anger, sadness and last but not least, happiness.

It has its ups and its downs.

Some people experience more downs, some more ups.

God is fair.

It sucks sometimes but its all a matter of getting used to.

Since you cant change others, change yourself.

So, deal with it.

Thats life for you.

18 april 1.29am

cloudless day

2010-04-17T04:47:00.000-07:00

no matter what happens, just turn to your best friend.

you'll feel better.

idk what you're trying to do but i'm telling you, its not working yo ;)

17 april 7.48pm

just like a tornado

2010-04-16T23:57:00.001-07:00

i've been sleeping quite alot recently.

havent been able to last past 12am these days.

what happened to lasting past 2am, 3am, 4am? ):

i'd start to feel tired at like 10 and just push on until 12 plus when somebody would push me off to bed and ask me to gts hahaha.

not that its a bad thing though ;)

slept like throughout the whole chinese drama thingy yesterday.

if laoshi asked us to write a reflection on it i'll just die or something.

like lol seriously it was nice especially cos i'm feeling damn snug and warm but the whole world is dying of cold :)

k sorry i'm a sadist.

jason's birthday celebration yesterday heh heh heh :)

my card's the nicestttt :)

pink one at the extreme left.

plus i took the trouble to print out the pic eh :D

facebook photo uploader is failing on me ):

cant upload photos dammit.

yeah and dinner was (Y) too :)

mos burger heh :)))

brings back alot of memories when me and powpowpow used to go to tiong/clementi's mos burger after school almost everyday.

had fun 'feeling very germaine' yesterday hahahahaha.

but saving money plan still failed when we bought anklets from diva yesterday )))):

the freaking extention was the same price as the thingy wth lololol.

OH YEAH AND NEW TAGBOARD.

like since er few days ago i forgot.

deleted old posts too :))))

k thats all goodbye folks :)

17 april 3.21pm

when you cant remember to forget

2010-04-15T08:44:00.000-07:00

i'm so sad now ):

stuffs are making me so depressed ):

1. jay's concert tickets on the 22th are sold out! major sad face )))))):

like within 2 hours it was released for sale, IT WAS SOLD OUT.

this is how popular he is.

cant even get the 228 bucks seats wth?!

so they're extending the concert dates to 23rd.

tickets are open for sale on 22th april.

THIS TIME I'M SO GONNA GET ONE.

dad's applying for a new ocbc credit card cos apparently they can get priority on his concert tickets.

ridiculous lah but ITS JAY LEH WALAO EH HOW CAN YOU MISS GOING TO SEE HIM.

2. i'm failing stuff like crazy in school

i dont understand a single shit that's being taught wth.

especially the three sciences urgh D<

3. ridiculous, trivial stuff are constantly weighing on my mind.

4. i'm damn bloody broke.

5. i havent settled my IC passport photo issue yet, how great.

how am i gonna do my IC tmrw you tell me?!

6. yet another day wasted.

7. when you go to sleep in the hope that the world tmrw would be a better when you wake up, but it just disappoints you everyday.

why are there so many stuff worth being depressed about ):

shall go to sleep and ponder over some stuff.

goodnight folks.

15 april 11.53pm

shannonpowpowpow

2010-04-15T08:18:00.000-07:00

same shoes, telepathy like no other manzxczxc shannonpowpowpow :)

11 april 11.54pm

ion.

2010-04-15T08:07:00.000-07:00

ion/somerset with germs after school today :)

maggie moo's ice cream totally (Y)

cotton candy :)

burnt a hole in my pocket and made my whole mouth totally blue though :/

happy birthday sissy ;)

07 april 9.23pm